"Come on, let's break it down, let's cause a commotion

Come on, let's bring the noise restrainer to Bremerton

So what's it gonna be and who's comin' with me?

It's time to make a choice on what was never easy

So let's roll with this role remodeling

I refuse to be, I refuse to see

To this role remodeling

Come on, let's smash the glass 

Into a thousand words of light

Cause we're all soldiers here

And yet we haven't learned to fight"

MXPX - Role Remodeling

So i think i'm going to start doing what amber does and have song lyrics at the start of most blog enterys. i love how it looks so kudo's amber i love it so much i'm stealing your idea. XD (still love me! lol)

so my weekend wasn't all that i expected, but it wasn't bad either. hung out with taryn and skyler on satuday and had to get up way earlier than i would have liked to do it but it was worth it for the most part. it was kool seeing skler again since it's been like a year or more, it was kinda weird too. i met a couple of his friends, i didn't like them to much. they were both big stoners and looked all ragedy. i think the two we met were dating and when we walked in the chick was laying in her underwear. she wasn't wearing much even after she covered herself up, i was glad when we left to go get something to eat. after some much enjoyed food we went to the pumkin patch. ugh i'm never going back to that place. it was kool in the moment but my allergies are now getting the best of me. :( it was fun though and skyler bought us all pumpkins XD yay.

after we dropped skyler off at his house to get ready for work taryn and i went to a cemetery close by. it's so nice at a grave yard i think i like the quiet. it's peaceful and serene to me, even when others only have sad thoughts because all the people there have had their life taken away by the grim reaper. i don't get sad by death and i'm not sure if i'm scared of my own. on some level i'm sure i am but not consciously. i don't think i'll realize how much i'm afraid until the moment when i'm confronted with death myself. something maybe weird about myself though is i want to write a will now, i'm not planning on dying but life is unexpected and i want to write letters to all the people that have changed my life. i don't want to die and the people close to me have nothing to remember me by or not know how much they meant to me. even if i can't say it to their face now i want them to know my heart in after my death. i also want to write what i want on my headstone, i want it to be a representation of who i am and not what someone else thought of me as.

after an exploit through the dead it was time to go back to the pumpkin patch for the main event of the night. scary haunted places that want to make you pee your pants!! haha i waited in line for almost an hour to be pretty dang bored in a haunted barn that is supposed to be the scariest in the state. i'm not going to lie i was very disappointed. i didn't get to do the corn maze one though. sadly taryn's man was having a bad day. i don't know if it's just from my point of view but he was acting like my mom's husband. he made us leave to give him keys so he could take a jeep he was working on to his friend and finish working on it but we all just ended up sitting on the couch. it didn't seem like such a emergency to me.....idk not only that but i don't understand having to put a grown man to bed. my mom has to do the same thing and its just pathetic in a way. (taryn if your reading this pls don't be mad at me. it's just my stupid opinion, i'm venting or whatev and i don't think nick needs to know about what i think....and if your not reading this i have nothing to worry about)

sunday i realized how much the pumpkin patch fucked with me DX i still can't breath but i'm just praying it's just my allergies because the alternative is i'm getting sick and that would blow big ones. i have ACT this weekend; i need to be healthy and in tip top shape to do good on my test!

damn this is a long one...almost done

so i forgot today was pj's day at school but it's not a big deal since i don't really wear pjs just some shorts and a t-shirt. i don't know how ppl can sleep naked....i can't. it just feels weird to me. the most i can manage is shorts and a bra...well tomorrow is nerd day in day two of spirit week at my school. i'm dressing up. i love playing dress up; so heck why not. like i can get any weirder....i'm wearing a polo with a high waist skirt, long socks, what i call church shoes and glasses with my hair in pig tails ^_^ i'm also going to try and put my hair in a mohawk for crazy hair day, i'm not sure if it'll work since my hair is A LOT longer then it used to be. i hope i can do it! think that's it for today.