"Why should I welcome Your domination
Why should I listen To explanations

I'm not pretending To make it simple
Try to be something Experimental
You don't turn me off I will never fail

Things I loved before, are now for sale
Keep yourself away
Far away from me
I'll Forever stay
Your perfect enemy

No longer waiting Remove illusions
No more complaining Forget confusion
No more compassion Not sentimental

I am now something Experimental
You don't turn me off I will never fail
Things I loved before, are now for sale
Keep yourself away
Far away from me
I'll Forever stay
Your perfect enemy"

Tatu- perfect enemy

okay so last night was pretty much what i expected. the party didn't really go as it was said to, which is how most things go. it  wasn't even really a party, more of a larger get together. i didn't know half the people there and was ready to leave and go to bed by eleven. my costume took a bit longer than i thought it would but i still liked it. i wish i had a camera to get more pictures than the three crappy ones i got on my phone. i didn't even draw on all the joints on me cuz it was taking to long, i was lazy, and i felt kinda rushed. for the most part all i really ended up doing was sitting on the couch in my kinda uncomfortable costume. lame.

i just got home about a hour ago, i was planning on driving home last night but didn't know if the door would be open when i got here. when i walked in my mom's hubby (martin) was awake and asked how my night was then proceeded to tease me after i told him. he's apparently going to "hook me up" with a party next year and wants to know my preference for a guy or girl. ugh, really getting tired of this, but what can i do? it's just how he is and i understand that now, he thinks he's helping and in his eyes i look more alone than i am. all he sees is me alone in the house or by myself in social events but never sees me with my friends or aaron (that being a good thing) and thinks if he can find a boyfriend/girlfriend for me than i would be all better. he doesn't see that i don't want just anyone, i want a certain kind of person. and i want something more than just physical attraction.


on a different note i can't wait for tomorrow. i'm going to spend most of today or all of it sewing and i think it will be worth it. i just hope i don't freeze tomorrow night when i'm out trick or treating, because of that i'm debating on whether to wear my black skirt or pants....probably the pants. (ps to amber.....hopefully you see this before tomorrow night, you should so wear the full out naruto so then we can be a matching pair! XD) along with that i'm not to sure how much make-up to wear....it's hard when going from a guy to a girl. i think i'm going to wear black and red make-up. hope it looks okay. i'm kind nervous on how it turns out and sad i can't be all bloody. maybe i'll put some blood on my face so it looks like i just killed someone mwhahahahah! lol i'm not sure if i'm going to carry my sword or not either but i think i will put on my kunai. (hope i didn't spell that wrong lol)

for school i'm going to put my dress on and maybe some blood ( i don't want to be orange later when i change into sasuke) and a crown and say i'm the queen or hearts daughter or put some sting on and be a puppet. the puppet would be a bit less work in the morning. except the joints but that should be to bad. huh guess i'll find out tomorrow morning.

i can't wait til midnight tonight when it is officially halloween, my favorite holiday and a big wiccan holiday. i don't think i'm doing anything for the wiccan Samhain part since i haven't really planned anything any already have so much else going on. then i can't wait to see amber, kam, and dulce. there are becoming a big part of my life and really great friends. i wish i could see them more often. i wish i wish i wish. i need to start doing. wishes don't come true on there own after all.